Somewhere just down from King\u2019s the chemist, was an empty house which should have been haunted, but was not.\u00a0 It was cracked and all the cracks weren\u2019t just the hairline things you see in the footling little walls people build these days.\u00a0 These cracks had the nobility and the vigour of the Mississippi River network.\u00a0 From the front gate which had even then long since been locked into rusted immobility, it was never used, seeing that there was no fence attached to it and one really did not have to open the gate to an estate which was not inhabited, anyway.<\/p>\n
From the locked gate, locked so irrevocably that even St. Peter could not have opened it against the sole remaining erstwhile staunchness of the fence its opposite style member had parted with the things in it. It spread the non-fence demarcated by chick weed and pee-the-bed.<\/p>\n
Am I still alive in Paddington?\u00a0 I have lost the contact.\u00a0 The stream of sub-consciousness is receding from awareness. – I am not remembering – I am not helping my childhood or my sons.\u00a0 If I put it down, it is out of my system, – the agonies, fixed \u2013 classified, not to be endured again, exhibits.\u00a0 That much of the effort sucked from the memory \u2013 one less thing in the bucket.<\/p>\n
What in that crazed house must be written down and commented upon from the memory of our blood?\u00a0 Windows awry, concrete cornucopias adrift from the brave fa\u00e7ade.<\/p>\n
Sunflowers growing through the gasbox and behind the windows a suggestion of life becomes sometimes the grey sun drapes were not so fixed as there had been a week before.\u00a0 In the garden the long johns wart bent and withered in its maturity: the paspalum only just held its own with the buffalo because Glenmore road was kind in buffalo and greeted it.\u00a0 It grew in such great clusters as only a motormower salesman could envisage.\u00a0 Not that it was in any danger then, for the only pair of hand shears within blocks was regularly borrowed for the necessary training of the tiny lawns at Waverley Cemetery, wherewith monstrous regularity, our neighbours made their abode.<\/p>\n
I\u2019ve had this house \u2013 It hasn\u2019t come to life\u2014I have started off to say something and it has died in my throat. I don\u2019t like that house now \u2013 It is not amusing, and if I think of it, I feel pretty near like it looked.\u00a0 Some other day we will both go down to Glenmore Road and throw a stone at its memory.<\/p>\n