Tue 20-Nov-56: Dorothy cabled money to me. Went to Tower of London & Victoria & Albert Museum
Wed 21-Nov-56: Caught 8am coach to Oxford – returned at 5:45pm.
Tues 20th Nov
1956. London
Wonderful and completely adorable wife!
All day I’ve been thinking about what a treasure I have got myself. You are a sweet thing and the more I contemplate your virtues the itchier I become, and the more impatient to grab you. This waiting is becoming really unbearable and I feel so dammed helpless about handling it. I suppose the obvious thing is to get myself so busy as to find little time for mooning around-it is the long dreary nights that are the killers here. Won’t be long enough, back home.
After I got your surprise packet (I only drew £25 of it) I staggered off down the hill to have a look at the Tower of London. It is a very sombre place and depressed me no end-what with the horrible thick black stone walls and slit windows. In various chambers, names have been chiselled and decorated deeply into the walls by prisoners of four and five hundred years ago. God knows how many came out. In the chapel, underneath the alter, there are buried alone three Queens and two Dukes all beheaded. And the chopping block and the axe. Look I can’t bring myself to writing about it. Most destructive to the spirit. Quite horrible, and seemingly emphasised the cold and greyly dismal weather. You would have hated it-with your sensitivity to outside influences. Never mind, I’m sure you can feel my love for you making its way round the world to be by your side.
I caught an underground from there and went to South Kensington where the Victoria and Albert Museum is situated. After looking at that Chinese Kuan-yin figure I spoke of before, I felt much better and more relaxed. Also saw a lovely Constable of Salisbury Cathedral and some very good Reynolds, and a beautiful double portrait of Gainsborough’s two daughters.
Don’t feel much like writing-apart from repeating endearing phrases to you stop so I think I’ll climb into bed and read for a while. If I get up early enough I might take a trip up to Oxford. It’s only 8/-return-and a two hour trip each way.








Well I’m up early. 5:45 a.m. [21 Nov 1956] dawdled around and washed my shirt. And just about to take off for the Green Coach Station where I get a bus for Oxford. I am sending this small letter now, just to keep you reminded of me and your heart nice and warm. This wouldn’t get the mail if I send it from Oxford. Tomorrow I’ll make more efforts about a suit and dressing gown. Indeed, you are right, I shall have to look my scraggy best-even if I have the gown on, only from the doorway to the cot stop
Graham seems to be growing up judging by the way he is writing his letters. They are more mature even if written in quite obvious scrawling haste. Give him a big squeeze from me. And ask him to start giving Trellie the drill about the old prodigal grandfather who will soon be back in the fold. Don’t forget the fatted calf for Sunday night December 2 and the bubbly!
Lots of love again I very dearest wife,
from your possessed husband
Bill XXXX
Wed night
21 Nov 56
My most extraordinarily complete and most lovable wife,
As you see, I didn’t get that letter off, as I just couldn’t find a post office to get stamps at 8 a.m.
I am now settled again on my 4th floor roost happily digesting an infinitesimal sliver of rump steak, contemplating both the ardours and delights of corresponding with you, and being warm for the first time today.
This London-or European weather-is everything they say it is-even now. When it really becomes winter it must give one the holy horrors. Dark at 3:30 p.m. they tell me. Can you imagine it? Grouping your way through the ever present fog through which, on a good day, a pale symbol for a sun bleakly appears perhaps the 3 or 4 minutes of the day. At that, it is exactly like, and as frigid as, the moon.
Got up to Oxford about 10:30 a.m., an hour of this travelling time being taken up nearly getting out of London. There seems to be an endless succession of practically identical row upon row of Victorian terraces, quite unlike the Sydney type, but just as monotonous after the first earnest interest. Then into the countryside, which is completely parklike, and fully inhabited. One seems never to get out of the sight of houses. The route I chose going up was rather dreary-but the alternative route back was very charming and I would say, typically English in its aspect. Beautiful rolling slopes, hedgerows-windbreaks in banked lines running over the ridges of the hills-alongside the road all trees, leaves of gold and red just covering the ground beneath them. Of course, at this time of the year it’s a bit dismal-fog-and scarcely a leaf left on any of the branches. The limbs, black and twigs lace like against the sky.
Was interested in Oxford but found it depressing. All those old dark buildings, some of which look as if they are actually liquefying before your eyes. Stone crumbling away, features on statues disappeared, all scraped off by the hungry maw of time. Perhaps the leafless trees, dank looking stone, moss, and grey bitter cold, takes the edge off any enthusiasm one may have for it. To say nothing of the seeming futility of seeing it alone. In any case, I have definitely had buildings now, and do not intend to walk one block even to see another. I guess I’ll tell you more about these places later-at the moment no amount of flogging can arouse any desire to expand on their qualities or otherwise, as I see them. In retrospect I shall properly find them all so much the more gracious, than I do at the moment.








I can truly say that I await with impatience this hour on today week. For, as it is now 9:30 p.m., I will then be sitting in the Zürich airport waiting to board the plane which is due to arrive fair at 9:40 p.m. you must forgive me, sweetie, if my letters become more and more perfunctorily written because the first wild exploratory excitement has gone-and I can’t be bothered, or for that matter, get, in his stimulus from drearily drinking beer alone. So with these sad words I say farewell (until tomorrow) to my dearest girl and companion.
Thursday [22 November 1956]. Another day, and too cold from me to hold the pen properly. Am going down to Harrods to see if I can do any good for myself.
And starting to panic a bit about my luggage weight-nearby I’ll try to find some weighing machine so that I can get an idea of what I shall have to send back by ship. I am already unloading my books by post-pamphlets, maps and scraps of odds and ends too. Haven’t really got much time left to organise postage and wrapping. Loads and loads of love my dear-very dearest, wife
Bill.
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